My Family & I

Hmm...lama dah kan...

2010-04-02T09:02:00.004+08:00

It has been what..5 months...tak update blog nie...and to my surprise...ada gak audience2 yang tak disangka2 tengok blog yang tak seberapa nie....to who ever you are...wellcome and thank you....

So what to write this time...banyak nak citer tapi tak tau nak start kat mana....so bagi summary jer lah ek....

1. August 2009...meninggalkan CIMB...hmm sedih tinggalkan kawan2 but happy I dont have to do audit anymore...no more checking...no more travelling...no more audit finding...exit meeting...report...heee...pening...

2. Cuti 2 minggu...best giler...tapi sekejap jer...lepak rumah ngan anak2...tengok TV sampai nak muntah...

3.join Bursa in Mid September...What a nice place to work here...banyak giler aktiviti2 yang menarik...(besides work lah)...tak pernah2 main futsal...I play futsal...for Bursa..managed to join one tournament...tak menang lah...but not bad lah...main netball...as usuall but this time is fun as compared to CIMB yang banyak politik bila tiba nak select players tuh...fun sebab...we play for fun..for exercise of course....then..ada yoga...other then that...makan senang...parking FREE ..covered lagi...aper nak lagi....but...just for 4 months...hmm sad but true...

4. The journey begin...as saudagar minyak (name that we called ourselves during the training....January to February 2010....8 of us...going through dipping, receiving, ISIS, SS3...and a lot more...it was fun...(walaupun agak stress) but new thing...excited....can wait to start operation...

5...NOW here I am...April 2010...station tak siap lagi 65% construction....maybe JUNE / JULY 2010...so for the time being...nganga....tak tau nak buat aper...the worst part is...no income....so stay home...tunggu anak2 balik sekolah...tunggu husband balik kerja...main Farmville...kadang2 lunch ngan kawan2...kadang2 tolong husband buat kerja sket2 kat office....PENANTIAN ITU SATU PENYIKSAAN...but ok lah...nak relek sangat kan...hambik ko....

what ever it is...I'm happy with my current life...syukur dengan rezeki Allah berikan...tak kerja pun Alhamdullilah cukup jer...kena lah pandai berjimat kan....so see you guys later k in another topic of course...if I got time...heheh...

Buat Arwah Ibu Mertua Ku.....

2009-10-09T11:12:00.002+08:00

Ibu Mertua Ku ...Fatimah Binti Yahaya baru saja kembali ker rahmatullah pada 28 September 2009 di hospital Serdang....

I've been trying to find courage to update this blog this time around...what more reason could I penned down here...nothing... but to accept the fact that my dear Mother In Law is no longger around...

Kalau tak tu...dari bulan Ramadhan yang lalu, acara wajib kami sekeluarga setiap hujung minggu ialah ke Gombak, visiting her @ one of this diabetic centre to treat her DFU (diabetic foot ulser) sebab she refuse to amputate her one and only leg...kaki satu lagi dah potong last year....(raya haji to be exact).

Pity her...so we all raya pun tak balik SP... sebab mak beraya kat gombak...she cried when we visited her on the 1st day raya...bukan sebab sedih raya tu...sedih sebab kaki dia sakit....after 3 week treatment luka yang kecik kat tumit dah besar sampai ker betis...finally she gave up and ask bob to take her to the hospital..."potong lah kaki nie..." she said dah tak der guna lagi dah....but after consultation and adviced by the owner of the centre...she agrees to wait for few more days....

So we went back to SP nak jumpa Abah and other siblings and relative kat sana...raya kedua kitaorang bertolak...tapi besoknyer my borther in-Law and my father in-law pegi Kl lak nak tengok mak....they said...kaki mak dah teruk...badan mak bengkak looks like dah ada jantung nyer complication just like before masa dia nak potong kaki the 1st time tuh....so they sent her to Hospital Serdang...and we all rushed back to Putrajaya....hari raya ke 3 dia masuk hospital...through out her admission there...her health turun naik...ada time she look very2 bad...nak bernapas pun susah...line sana...cucuk sini..oksigen lagi...ish sedih betul tengok dia masa tu...

but towards her last day ie Sabtu & Ahad...she looks ok..especially bila ramai sedara mara datang tengok dia kat hospital...I managed to cook for her on Sunday sebab sibok nak g beraya dengan kawan2 on that day...sigh...* feel bad*

Monday...hari busy semua org...adik.(name we called Bob's sister)..kalut selepas 2 minggu cuti banyak kerja...dan on that afternoon she got headace....terrible one katanyer...sampai dia tertidur kat office...so tak p tengok mak...bob...sama gak semau org panggil..tengok site...jumpa client...macam2...and tak tengok mak jugak....myself..kerja lah...monday is Kumon day...kalu t pulak nak antar budak2 g kumon...

I reached putrajaya arund 6.30pm...sampai2 jer amik anak2 nak g kumon...baru jer drive sampai dekat P10 tu adik called:

Adik: K.amy...ada mana
Amy:nak p kumon...
Adik: Eh k.amy..hospital call..mak tak sedar...
Amy: Hah...(macam nak meletup dada...) ok k.amy pusing balik...mai lah umah tinggalkan anisa kat umah..kita p hospital...

Dah sampai umah sementara tunggu Adik....bob balik...eh mak tak sedar kata bob...nak g spital...I go first ..c u there...that was around 6.45pm...

ish adik nie sampai lambat lah pulak...call bibik (maid yang tunggu mak kat spital)
Amy: Supriatin...mak camner
Supriatin: K.amy datang cepat lah...makcik tak sedar...saya dah panggil Dr..sekarang Dr tengah tengok...dia tak bagi masuk....
and that was around 6.50pm

One the way to hospital...kak long (bob's eldest sister) called...
kak Long: Amy..mak nak simpan kat mana
Amy:...hah simpan...kitaorg tak sampai hospital lagi lah...Dr kata mak tak sedar...tak tau lagi...
ruper2nyer bob dah sms to adik beradik ..."mak dah kembali ke rahmatullah..."
..adik and myself..stil in denial...tak per kita g dulu tengok...adik dah start menangis...and myself...kaki dah macam jelly...

7.15..the moment we reached there...langsir semua tutup..bob mata dah merah...suprihatin dah baca yassin...and mak...dah kena tutup dengan kain putih...innallillah wainna illarijiun....no words can express my feeling at that point of time.... They decided to settled everything here in Putrajaya...kesian mayat seksa kalau nak bawak balik jauh....so I have to rush home to settle things and prepare for the jenazah nak dibawa balik...around 10.30pm jenazah selamat di bawa balik to my house...in putrajaya...

This was the last raya that she can still walk with her 2 legs...in 2007...in 2008 she start sufferring the DFU on her left leg...and was amputated somewhere in November 2008. We spent most of our raya ulang alik hospital that year....2009...another raya..another round trip to and from hospital...but this time...not for long...

Allah maha mengetahui...segala apa yang berlaku ada hikmahnyer...alhamdullilah semua derita yang ditanggung...sakit..penat..lelah...untuk menjalani hidup harian nyer...akhirnyer berakhir sudah...

Mak semoga mak di tempatkan di kalangan orang2 yang soleh dan beriman...Alfatihah
To my dear friends thank you for your support, condolence, sedekah, may Allah blessed u all...and to Besfren, Nana and Mate...thank you so much for coming...

Raya oh Raya

2009-09-17T10:34:00.003+08:00

Raya datang lagi..tapi kenapa aku tak semangat pun nak raya tahun nie...

Maybe...

1. Sebab tukar kerja ari tuh...dan sebab ambik cuti rehat tanpa gaji in between leads to myself being salaryless..bila dah salaryless meaning moneyless...meaning shoppingless...heheh...padan muka sendiri carik pasal

2. nak balik raya mana tahun nie still unconfirm yet sebab...my MIL is in Gombak going for her diebetic treatment..duduk sana...dah 4 minggu dah...and maybe for the next 3 month...hmm...nak balik seremban...takkan nak tinggalkan dia kat situ dah lah semua org beraya dia kena duk kat centre tu...sigh....

3. dah tua kot....dah tak macam dulu lagi...tak per lah kasi can kat anak2 lah pulak...

4. Time flies so fast..sekejap jer dah nak raya pulak....padahal baru jer rasanyer raya tahun lepas...raya yang paling best sebab entah apa mimpi cik abang bagi pulak beraya di seremban dulu..kalau tak tu...SP..SP..SP..dah betahun kahwin...11 years to be exact...baru lah last year dapat merasa beraya dengan family, cousin2 auntie2 uncle2 belah seremban....ada tuh dah almost 10 years tak jumpa pun ada...hmm....

5. sebab tukar kerja tak leh cuti lama2...hari jumaat dah nak kena masuk kerja...dah lah tu 2 hari tuh kena amik unpaid leave pulak tuh....hmm selipa jepun betul...

Tapi tak per lah aku take things positively lah..atleast aku tak yah kalut2 nak balik kampung sana sini....most probably raya kat uamh aku jer Putrajaya...ok what...Seremban dekat jer...petang leh balik kot..lepas g gombak itu pun subject tu adik beradi husband aku tak datang KL...semua still uncertain lagi sampai lah saat ini heheh...

Apa2 pun to all Selamat Hari Raya...Maaf Zahir dan Batin...semoga berbahagia di lebaran ini....

Bila dah jumpa...tak hengat...

2009-09-16T16:06:00.008+08:00

Kawan lagi...maklumlah kan kawan nyer ramai..kali nie saper lagi kalau tak ex MRSM Jelebu....nie dah lebih pada adik beradik...dah kenal sejak dari kechik2 lagi....dah lama tak jumpa banyak menda nak update...walaupun ada tu selalu jumpa...ada tu jaraaang jumpa...saper lagi kalau tak muka2 nie.... Si Gapam muka yang sentiasa nampak muda...muka dari masa sekolah2 dulu...samaaaa sampai lah sekarang...hmm jeles aku...

Adeleen aka Maprec yang kurus kering...tak makan..maklum lah duk kat jepun tuh mana ada roti canai, roti jala, ayam masak merah nasi beriani...hmm tu lah g lagi merantau duk jauh2....Bestfren ong yang sentiasa happy dan ceria...walaupun partner outstation sokmo...tak per besfren janji hati mau happy kan...

Dan... last sekali mate ong...Cik Puan Datin kita....juga happy dengan life dia sekarang walaupun takut nak keluar sebab banyak ancaman...heheh aper2 lah mate kan....

Kitaorang g buka puasa kat solok gong mana tah mate ong bawak...kat area2 ukay perdana tuh...jauh gila nak meredah jem dari putrajaya tu....but we were happy, gelak kuat giler tak hengat dunia...sib baik lah tempat tuh tak ramai org walaupun aku perasan gak org2 yang ada tuh do tengok semacam jer kan...tapi tak per lah...lantak lah nak kata apa pun...

Antara cerita2 yang di kenang...

1. Acara paw limau kat tokong dan lawatan muhibah besfren ong, mate ong dan kawan2 ker rumah abg polis..boleh...ish..ish

2. Acara menengok gambar2 lama especially besfren ong...banyakkan gambar hang ong simpan...semua cute2 giler...sampai dia pun tak ingat dia ada amik gambar2 macam tuh

3. Citer masa mula2 masuk jelebu..mimi dan baju tidur nyer...dan beberapa budak pompuan lain yang berkain batik...gara2 mereka nie...terpaksalah sekolah mengeluarkan undang2 tak boleh pakai baju tidur dan kain batik jika berlegar2 dia kawasan kelas...heheh...alah sekolah tuh bukan nnyer besar sangat pun kan...

4. Citer amik sembahyang tipu2...gara2 aktiviti2 malam di sekolah...hmm kenyang sampai sekarang kan besfren...

5. Citer kenapa gambar adeleen tak der banyak...kenapa ek adeleen...hmm sendiri mau ingat lah...

6. Citer kena histeria dan saper yang betul2 sakit dan saper yang buat2...heheh....

7. Banyak citer tapi citer last sekali yang agak menyayat hati...sian kawan kita kan..tak per lah cumer kuat kan semangat dan hidup mesti diteruskan.....

Tu tak masuk lagi cerita2 sampingan yang menyayat hati..menggelikan hati....dan memecahkan perut...adoi gelak ajer aku malam tuh sedar tak sedar...dah...kul 11.30 malam..boss mate ong dah mai kat table ajak balik...kono lah balik....

Sad..happy...semua ada...sesekali....mengimbau kenangan lama.....

Semoga berjumpa lagi nanti..miss u all so much...miss our old school and our life there once upon a time....dulu kat tepi umah tok undang tuh....I wil treasure all those sweet memories...sampai bila2....

026/87

Friends...Forever...SRK KGV...

2009-09-07T08:55:00.013+08:00

Bulan Ramadhan nie yang bestnyer adalah aktiviti berbuka puasa dengan kawan2...kalau boleh semua group of kawan2 nak jumpa...maklumlah lepas satu satu sekolah masuk kan...dari sekolah rendah..ker sekolah menengah...sekolah menengah jer ada dua...pas tu masuk MLA buat intensive english...buat A-Level..sampai lah ker University...tapi tak abis kat situ jer...lepas abis sekolah...kerja pulak...setakat nie ie September 2009 dah 5 company aku join...dari Hong Leong Finance (merge pulak dengan Hong Leong Bank), Bank Industri, BCB ..CIMB Investment dan last sekali Bursa Malaysia...hmm terasa pulak diri nie dah tua kan..tapi tak per jiwa tetap muda...

Well... talking about frens nie...fuh ramai giler...ada yang best..ada yang tak best...tapi buat aper nak ingat yang tak best tu kan....yang paling best sekali bila citer pasal kawan nie...ada kawan2 yang dah bertahun2 tak jumpa dan dulu2 tak rapat pun...I dont even remember an occasion where we talk or even smile to each other...tapi bila dah lama tak jumpa...entah macamana terjumpa balik.... we can talk...laugh (kuat giler)...or even kutuk each other..like we have been bestfriend forever...that's wonders of friends..especially long lost friends...

The first week of ramadhan...thanks to Jem and Aziah...I managed to join a small group of friends from my Sekolah Rendah KGV berbuka puasa...ish sekolah rendah tuh dah dekat 20 tahun lebih...1981 to 1985 hah 24 tahun to be exact....walaupun ada yang blur dan dah ingat2 luper...but not bad...we managed to catch up...8 of us..cukup menggamatkan bora ombak tu...thanks to all for coming...

ada yang dah jadi ustaz... hmm en Shah Nizam Basirun...nama macam familiar...I knew this guy since in Darjah 1 Bunga Raya...duduk sebelah dalam kelas...hari doing nothing but kacau mamat nie...hehe...he got great memories...he remembers each and every details / event masa sekolah dulu..aku jugak yang otak dah berkarat...

Antaranya....macamana cikgu fatimah appoint ketua darjah...hehe

Cikgu Fatimah: Saper pandai eja bunga raya
Shah Nizam: saya cikgu..bu...nya..ra..ya...BUNGA RAYA
Cikgu Fatimah: Salah
Fazmi: BU..NGA..RA..YA...BUNGA RAYA....
Cikgu Fatimah: BEtul..ok Fazmi ketua darjah...Shah Nizam..Penolong...

Muahahaa....imagine he remembers all that....dan being me...jadi ketua darjah doing nothing but talking.... but all the drity jobs done by no one else but shah....nice to see u again shah...

Ada yang dah jadi businessman berjaya...En Hazeli....lamo den pikir...sapo de budak nih...muko cam kenal...belek..punya belek...tengok punya tengok...adoi hai baru aku ingat...rakan sekelas ku Masa Darjah Enam kuning...dulu masa sekolah hensem..la nih dah jadi cam hang tuah lak aku tengok..sekarang pun hensem gak....Happily married with great carreer..kawan ku sorang ni Pn Syikin Jem...sekolah dari sekolah rendah sampai MRSM jelebu pun sekali...iyo lah jem sebab tu lah asyik jumpa kau jer kan..anyway...good company lah having you around...banyak gossip yang leh di update...banyak gak perubahan berlaku pada kawan aku sorang nih...dari sekolah dulu..ala2 comot..rambut kerinting..jadi bahan ejekan budak2 lelaki..sekarang tengok...vogue gitu...hmm tu lah ..melepas semua org kan jem kan...Boss besar...nie sorang lagi...En Iskandar kita...yang dulu2 masa sekolah boleh dikatakan mat romeo...nak kat orang lawa jer...tapi sekarang dah jadi boss besar...boleh tahan lah kan Is kan...he is still the same guy that I used to remember a long time ago...and sib baik dia still kenal aku lagi..mana lah tau kan..dah jadi boss besar tak ingat kat aku lagi kan....heheh...

Vogue dan maintain..super mom lagi...cik puan Aziah nie..memang vogue g mana2 kalau tak melawa tak sah...siapa sangka budak cute masa sekolah dulu turns out to be vogue cam gini...

Stays single but happy...membesar dengan jayanyer si Jack nie... ni sorang lagi kawan aku yang sekolah sama dari kechik dari tadika...iyer Shah aku ingat nama tadika tu Khalsa...sampai form five....ini adalah antara orang yang kalau boleh ada minyak panas aku nak simbah kat muka dia masa sekolah dulu..tukang mengejek..mengata...menggelakkan orang..hah inilah orang nyer...tak lain tak bukan En Fazli...nama pun dah nak dekat2 dengan aku...tapi dah tua2 nie bila jumpa ingat2 masa lalu...jadi lawak lah pulak....hmm sib baik aku tak berdendam dengan kau jack...

Last but not least..my dear neighbour...sekampung...dulu tak pernah bercakap2 pun...different class...selalu lalu jer on the way to school sebab umah dia kat simpang empat...takkan miss punya...even until now....

Itu lah antara kawan2 sekolah aku masa KGV rendah dulu...ramai lagi lah antara yang baik dengan aku antara nyer Ainura...Fazura...Zikmawati...Siti Fatimah..Raja Haslinda...Amira..tapi dah tak jumpa tak leh nak citer2 kat sini....Hopefully dapat lah jumpa satu hari nantikan...

Here We Go Again

2009-07-13T13:19:00.002+08:00

Hmm...nak citer pun malu but this time aku rasa aku tak salah....my new maid after 1 month finally decided that "dia enggak betah duduk di sini...."...apa lagi lari lagi lah maid aku tu....

The biggest mistake ever is I've let her met my old maid...maid yang lari dulu tu...tiber2 datang balik konon2 nyer terpaksa balik kerja rumah aku sebab mak ayah dia insist...since my husband kenal dengan pakcik dia...but I suspected setelah lari dalam 3 minggu dia sedar kot kerja kat luar sana tak lah semudah kerja dekat rumah nie...makan tanggung, rumah sewa tak yah bayar.....keperluan2 asas semua orang bagi. Itu pun tak sedar diuntung...lari ikut jantan ...

So after she has came back...since I've ordered a new maid...maid baru pun sampai..sempat lah berjumpa dalam 2 minggu...lepas tu we decided to send her back....tah haper yang dah diracun dek maid lama nie pun tak tau lah...tiba2 jer tak der ribut tak der hujan tak mau kerja dah...eh permit semua dah buat nie camner...buat akal sakit perut lah...kerja nyer tidur jer 24jam budak2 makan pun tak ketahuan....sabar jer lah aku selama dia ada kat situ iyer lah....tidur mampos lak tu...aku pulak tukang kejut dia pagi2....eei geram betul mengenangkan

Tapi yang buat aku betul2 marah nie ialah...aku keluar g Mines..bawak lah Imman dan tinggalkan Sarah & Tasah kat umah dengan dia....balik2 la...bibik mana...entah budak2 nie pun duk di atas...tah bila dia keluar...hilang lesap...hampeh...tinggal anak2 aku kat umah...

So this time nak kata aku marah...sepatah haper aku tak cakap...aku cumer cakap dengan dia...rumah makesure bersih...anak2 mesti mandi dan makan bila waktu...itu jer lah...dia nak tidur ker...dia nak makan ker...dia tengok Tv ker lantak dia....tapi tiba masa...lari jugak...indon nie dah memang taksedar diri dah...yang kerja sampai kena dera tak bayar gaji tak di bagi makan...kena belasah lagi....leh duk sampai 3 tahun...ini tak buat apa..sebulan dah cabut...siot lah...

Aku suspect maid lama aku punya kerja sebab konon nak balik tapi tak balik...aku dapat tau minah tu still contact ie call umah aku and communicate dengan maid baru aku...aku nampak ada 2 helai seluar belong to my old maid dalam bilik bawah tempat my new maid tu tidor...dulu aku suruh pakai dia tak mau konon besar lah haper lah...ini mesti maid lama tu dah pesan oh kalau nak lari jangan lupa amik seluar dia sekali...kalau nak curi baju banyak lagi baju aku dia nak curi kenapa nak amikseluar yang dia tak leh pakai tu...hampeh lagi...

So at the moment hidup aku serabut balik...maid tak der pulak..anak2 duk nursery lagi...balik umah bersilat nak kemas umah dan cuci baju...pagi2 kalut2 siapkan semua orang nak pergi sekolah....adoi hai bila lah semua nie nak selesai...

One More Month To Go

2009-07-10T13:23:00.007+08:00

Jenuh gak menghitung hari nie...but luckily dari 3 months now there's only one month to go...cannot take it...I decided to opt for an early release but there's a cost to it...obviously the rule says 3 months notice or 3 months pay...so nak bayar 3 bulan tak larat lah...mana nak cekau duit kan...so I asked for 2 weeks early release...kena gak bayar lah tapi manage to knock off the rest of the month's salary ended up tak yah lah bayar 1 sen pun...tapi cum august tak der gaji achik...adoi hai...tak per lah

The initial plan is....to leave for good...good bye to corporate ...(ee keparat) world...but kalau dah rezeki tu rezeki gak (alhamdullilah..) datang pulak offer lain...good offer...aduh hai poning gak kepalo achik nak memikir an nie hah...but hubby said...tak per lah kerjalah dulu and see how...if the business can sustain then u quit lah...since now market is not doing so well...business pun quite slow...so ok lah...we decided to take the offer and see how...kalau tak leh g gak kerja nie alamat nak kena resign jugak lah...

Aku bukan apa...I think the kids need me more that the job needs me...(but looks like it's me who need the job most...) but what to do...pikir2 apa2 hal pun duit jugak yang di dulukan...although I totally disagree with my husband punya sugesstion to take up the offer no matter how good the offer was...but tak per lah no harm trying...

I wonder why money is such an important matters in our life nowadays....which I seriously disagree with it....If I have to choose between money and my kids I would rather go for the kids...biarlah hidup susah sket tapi anak2 tak berterabur....kids nie bukan masa kecik jer need full attention from bila dah besar sket ruper nyer perlukan lebih attention...now I know how pening my parents are while raising me last time....hmm parenthood...the most challenging task in the world....

Anak2 kalau tak monitor...kerja sekolah tak kemana...TV 24 jam...kalau tak TV game...(salah aku jugak yang g beli...) kalau tak tu main kat padang...hmm bila suruh baca buku mata mula nak tertutup...cikgu zaman sekarang nie pulak bukan cikgu cam zaman dulu...anak kau paham ker tak paham ker...lantak korang lah...so kalau tak tengok sekolah tak kemana...mengaji lagi satu hal...sembahyang lagi satu hal....itu belum bab jaga harta benda...kalau stakat stationery tu sah citer lah manjaang jer tak cukup / tak der/ hilang etc...buku satu hal...pakaian...semua tak leh nak manage sendiri...I keep on telling my kids...at the age of 9 ie darjah 3 dah basuh and gosok baju sendiri...nak siap2 g sekolah ker..buku ker...semua sendiri...tak der mak ayah aku nak kena monitor...nie tak...kalau tak cakap tak buat...duit belanja dah buh atas meja pun leh tertinggal....adoi hai...

Ari tu g amik report card Tasha....dari no 1 darjah 3 dulu kelas no 4 naik to kelas no 1 darjah 4 nie...1 semester no 11...half year exam no 30...hah tu lah kawad kaki lah...pengakap lah...sukan lah...adoi ...aku dulu active gak...tapi buku tak lak terbiar...camner nak buat nie...

So time is so precious to me...I need those to keep up with my kids...but now I have to let it go again although I think am willing to let go the RM...what to do husband said...we'll see 1st...we need the medical...hospitalisation arrrggghhhh...

WHAT A DECISION TO MAKE...HOPE I"M RIGHT AGAIN THIS TIME....

UPDATES...after sooo long

2009-06-03T15:59:00.002+08:00

Hmm lamaaa dah rasanya tak update blog nie...thanks Bfren for calling yesterday....nak buat camner tak sempat...citer nyer lebih kurang gini lah...

Aku baru jer balik dari Jakarta...kerja eh bukan jalan2 cari makan....dua minggu dari 10hb May ari tu sampai 21 hb...so Hani sorry lah tak leh nak join makan2 kat Alamanda hari tu...bukan sengaja nak ngelat ker heper tapi aku memang tak sempat....even on the travelling day tu (ie hari Ahad) pagi tu still kalut nak setle kan few things kerja opis yang pending...Sekarang nie rushing nak setle kan report pulak...kerja kat opis nie melambak sampaikan nak muntah aku tengok...pagi2 nak g kerja menung lu sat nak pikir nak kena g kerja nie....bosan nak mampus campur tension macam2 lagi lah....

Tapi the best part is Last Monday aku dengan jaya nyer (setelah bebulan pikir dan pikir dan pikir...) akhirnyer aku berjaya TENDER RESIGNATION aku...fuh...sungguh lega rasanya....TAPI...nak kena tunggu 3 bulan tu notice nyer...haper lah company aku nie...tapi nak buat camner...look at the bright side ada gak gaji 3 bulan untuk aku kan....so itu lah serba sedikit pasal diri aku....

YES...or...NO

2009-04-09T14:05:00.006+08:00

I have to decide now...

1. Continue without maid....hmm kalau ada sakit hati...kalau tak der susah...

2. Resign or Unpaid leave...resign...no income...means good bye to all my expensive maintenance...unpaid leave...after a few months nak kena sambung kerja balik....which i don't really like it at the moment...

If I resign...

1. I can help hubby with his business...but it is really a tough job...nampak macam senang tapi his company is a one man show company..a lot of things kena buat sendiri...bukan company yang boleh nak tunjuk sana tunjuk sini..(jadi boss besar lah konon...no way...)

2. by joining him..there goes my own personnal life...pagi petang siang malam...duk ngadap muka tu jer...hmm silap2 hari2 gaduh...guanno deh

3. But the best part is..if I can close a deal for the company...I can always demand for some % out of the profit earned...

4.Resign means...no own income...there goes my lancome...herbalife...spa...facial...shopping...etc...

5. But I'll be having my own sweet time then...boleh balik tengahari amik anak sekolah...petang pukul 4 boleh balik rumah untuk masak for the family...and have more time with my kids...

Nanti malam nak kena sit down dengan boss (laki aku lah...) to discuss the terms and conditions....heheh..he ask me to list down what is my expectation bila dah resign nanti....adoi susah nyer..nak kerja dengan CIMB dulu pun tak sesusah nie....

RUNAWAY BRIDE...eh silap...MAID....

2009-04-07T14:53:00.002+08:00

Selalu sangat dengar pasal maid lari nie....dah bayar ribu riban...tiba2 cabut...orang akan tanya..kenapa lari....kena dera ker...asyik kena marah jer ker...majikan abuse/molested ker...hmm macam2...it never occurs to me that this thing will hapen to me...dulu2 lah my 2nd maid pun lari jugak....tapi baru sampai 3 hari dah cabut...tu macam bukan lah salah aku...nampak gaya memang macam dah ada agenda sendiri lah...nak jadi maid cuma alasan untuk cross over jer....takkan baru 3 hari dah nak cabut...

But this incident really happened to me last week... my maid after working for almost 11 months (nak masuk 1 year pun dah kan...) finally lari malam...tak tau bila the actual time tapi bangun2 pagi pukul 6.30 pagi dah tak der dah...my daughter nyaris2 terlepas nak pegi sekolah....siap tinggal nota.."minta maaf sebab dah tak bisa membuatkan diri nyer tenang bekerja di rumah ini..."...cis..

Hmm what a life man...dah lah tangan sakit baru lepas operation....sekarang nie kena buat semua kerja rumah sendiri....anak2 hantar nursery..kesian pulak kat Imman pagi tadi dia menangis tak nak duk nursery tu...suruh aku balik tengahari duduk dengan dia kat rumah...adoi hai sedih lah pulak....

Cerita balik pasal maid nie...dah lah lari dengan handphone N80 aku cheh...tak kenang budi dah bagi pinjam...siap beli phone baru lagi...which have cost me Rm550 but she agrees to cut her pay lah....hampeh...phone lama rembat yang baru pun bawa pegi...

Tapi surprisingly my daughter (Tasha) sms her last Sunday...she replied...hmm tapi pandai tak bagi tau duk kat mana...she ask for her 3 months pay yang due....Oh...no wonder lah reply sms tu..nak duit rupernyer...sms2 punya sms baru lah dia bagi tau dia ada kat rawang...yang dulu konon2 nyer macam orang bodoh tak tau apa2 pasal m'sia nie...nak pegi mana pun tak tau...tiba2 leh sampai rawang...cheh...ari tu minta phone aku dah cakap dengan laki aku...nanti dah ada phone mesti dah boleh contact orang luar yang boleh racun/advise dia buat itu ini...but my husband said...biar lah...alah dia nak lari mana...hmm tak sampai 3 bulan dapat phone boleh lari dan boleh sampai rawang lagi...bengong..betul jugak sangkaan aku....dia takkan sampai kerawang tu kalau tak der orang ajar or ambik dia kat putrajaya tu...dah lah lari malam...

What the heck...my husband called her after that...dia pun mengadu...tak leh tahan dengan aku sebab garang sangat...asyik kena marah jer....hmm aku cakap simple jer...kalau dah hari2 kena ulang to remind her benda yang sama mana2 majikan pun naik hantu...kalau dah pesyen bodoh tak gheti bahasa...beruk pun naik angin....this is not my first maid...dah 5 orang dah maid...kalau betullah aku nie teruk dah lama dah semua maid lari....apa jer yang aku tak bagi...nak phone bagi, setiap kali raya or even we went shopping mesti ada habuan untuk dia...pegi carrefour beli barang2 rumah ada jer menda2 yang di minta aku beli tak tolak gaji...itu pun sempat nak kutuk2 aku lagi....apa punya orang gaji tak kenang budi....but I keep on telling myself...well this are all low level people...you treat them well macamana pun akan tetap cari alasan to go for a better place/pay/life to work....so I don't give a damn...even husband aku nak amik maid baru pun...I said I would prefer to do all the house job on my own...rather than having another maid in the house...new maid...new problem...biarlah penat sket asalkan tak sakit hati....

hampeh...selipa jepun punya maid...boleh blah lah

CARPAL TUNNEL SINDROM

2009-04-07T14:30:00.004+08:00

Do you have numbness, uneasiness/lenguh2/ sakit2 urat around your hand....kalau ada u better go and check...

For more info check the net...I cut & paste this from the internet

What is Carpal Tunnel Syndrome?

Carpal tunnel syndrome is a painful progressive condition caused by compression of a key nerve in the wrist. It occurs when the median nerve, which runs from the forearm into the hand, becomes pressed or squeezed at the wrist. Symptoms usually start gradually, with pain, weakness, or numbness in the hand and wrist, radiating up the arm. As symptoms worsen, people might feel tingling during the day, and decreased grip strength may make it difficult to form a fist, grasp small objects, or perform other manual tasks. In some cases no direct cause of the syndrome can be identified. Most likely the disorder is due to a congenital predisposition - the carpal tunnel is simply smaller in some people than in others. However, the risk of developing carpal tunnel syndrome is especially common in those performing assembly line work.

I went through a minor surgery to do this 'carpal tunnel release' operations last two weeks....yucks...it hurts and difficult to move and do your daily routine...especially when it is your right hand...

Dr kata maybe it is due to a very long hours of laptop activities....hmm kerja kuat sangat kot...entah lah...rasa nyer tak lah berapa kuat sangat pun....or maybe water retention during pregnancy....atau whatever activities that require pressing your palm onto any hard surface....hmm...

Whatever it is...dah setle dah..tangan tak sakit dah...malam2 dah tak lenguh2/kebas...sampai nak angkat barang pun tak leh....

What a life

2009-03-06T12:13:00.004+08:00

Hmm..it has been ages since the last time I wrote here...busy, tak der masa, kerja banyak lah...anak2 lah...rumahlah...macam2...but what to do...that's life...

Kadang2 rasa macam nak kembali single...where I have a life just for myself...boleh g mana2 sajer bila2 masa....shopping..lepak2 ngan member...siang ker malam ker...bila2 masa pun boleh....but...how i wish...heh...

But..as I look back...well my life is not that bad lah...busy is better than doing nothing....kerja banyak is better than being jobless...anak2..hmm ramai kat luar sana tak der anak....kerja2 rumah...nasib baik ada rumah...so stop complaining lah Amy...bersyukur lah dengan apa yang ada.....

IBU MERTUA KU

2009-02-10T13:01:00.008+08:00

Aku balik kampung last weekend....Sungai Petani, kampung husband aku lah..ibu mertua ku dengarnyer masuk spital lagi....ingatkan masuk Metro (its a private hospital...satu malam RM1000)...bukan...maybe Hospital Besar Sungai Petani...bukan bukan jugak...rupa2 nyer hospital Phang Oo Lang...hmm haper kemenda nyer tu...oooh..rupernyer selepas kluar masuk spital mak mentua aku nie... akhirnyer bertukar ker rawatan alternative...ala2 traditional cum homoepathy gitu lah...owned by this famous Doctor...doctor ker...Klinik and wad dia kat Kepala Batas....

Sebelum aku citer pasal Phang Oo Lang nie...baik aku citer sket pasal mak mentua aku nie....she's 59 years old...mengidap penyakit Kencing Manis...sounds familiar kan...she's been having it for the past 10 years...dah begantung kepada external Insulin for quite sometime already...all this while setakat luka2 kecil tu biasa...begi treatment dalam seminggu dua baik lah dia....

Tapi last year dalam bulan 3 gitu she started to have bruises kat tapak kaki dia...hitam macam lebam gitu lah...mula2 nampak macam tak der apa lama2 dalam bulan 6 gitu lebam tu makin besar.......tak per lah...biar dulu...

Bulan puasa puan tiba dalam bulan September...dia berkeras juga tak nak g hospital or check ker haper ker...sebab nak tunggu adik ipar aku yang bongsu nak bersalin...Ibu lah kan walau macamana pun tetap nak dulu kan anak...walaupun nyawa dalam bahaya...sehari sebelum raya tiba2 dia call kakak ipar aku...cakap nak pegi hospital...nak amik ubat takut nanti tak leh raya...sampai2 hospital she cannot take it anymore almost nak pengsan dah...dr suruh admitted...

Check punya check...Dr start to korek tapak kaki dia and Dr cakap kaki dia dah tak der isi...korek2 ruper nyer cam nie....after 5 days Dr (private hospital lah) suggest for BKE (Below Knee amputation)...

Ish tak leh jadi gini...anak2 decided to go for 2nd opinion...minta transfer g Hospital Besar SP...masuk lah dua hari...1st day Dr HBSP tu kata...oh...nie sikit jer nie...mana leh buat BKE...tapi kita treat buat dressing hari2...fuh lega tak yah potong...lepas dua hari..tengok2 HBSP suruh discharge...naper pulak nie...laaa...hospital tu penuh..patient lagi critical lagi ramai...mak tak critical...aduh hai...tapi hari2 kena g spital buat dressing...dah lah orang tua tu tak leh jalan...tak leh jadi...pegi balik Metro...hmm Dr Metro kata kalau nak treat kat sini...hanya untuk amputation looks like your mom nie dah start to have other complication...jantung...kidney...macam2 dah....

Pikir punya pikir...try g KL lak...Rina (my sister) she's in othophedic boleh tolong tengok kan and maybe boleh bagi other alternative other than amputation...duk lah kat spital selayang and the wound...getting bigger...and bigger....and bigger...like this

Duk lah spital slayang sampai Depavali...balik sebab the specialist dah suggest for amputation sebab wound dia tak baik2...she started to have leg cramp tak leh tidur malam..... duk lah umah aku kat putrajaya..after 2 weeks keadaan dia makin teruk...she cannot eat, cannot sleep and kitaorang pujuk lah dia g spital balik....we decided to go to hospital Serdang dekat sket dengan Putrajaya tu....check punya check Dr kata dia kena mild heart attack and stroke...aduh...quite critical masa tu siap masuk ICU....1 miggu gak lah nak settle kan masalah jantung dia tu....and obviously kaki dia tak baik2 ...luka makin besar...sebab daging kat kaki tu dah makin reput and to avoid infection Dr kena lah buang....final decision by the Dr was still amputation...my MIL tak nak...balik lah rumah....

my sis dah ajar my husband camner nak buat dressing and she suggested a medication to help increase the probability isi nak tumbuh...after two weeks the wound tak baik2 gak...with the leg cramp and everything my MIL sendiri nak g potong kaki dia...tak leh tahan dah....finally we went again to Hospital Selayang to go for BKE...tengok2 tak leh sebab Selayang tak der Cardiac centre...since my MIL ada jantung nyer complication...then they suggested to operate kat Serdang.....ini lah rupa kaki dia sebelum amputation

3 hari sebelum raya haji....my MIL punya kaki sebelah kiri dah pun di potang....

NOW as in yesterday 9.2.09...my MIL cannot walk...almost bed ridden..kalau bangun pun setakat duduk kat katil jer...g toilet pun kena orang angkat duk kat toilet bowl...mandi pun kena mandi kan....so the other leg pun dah start having black bruises...dan semalam kat klinik Phang Oo Lang tu...luka dia dah start membesar....looks like the same old thing started all over again....

Tak tau lah berapa lama dah kena duduk kat Phang Oo Lang tu...hopefully the wound recover dan tak yah lah nak kena amputate lagi....kesian...

Romantic Movies...Tagged by my BF

2009-02-06T17:08:00.011+08:00

Thks to besfren for the tag....here it goes....

Please copy the following rules in your post (as usual)1. You have to point out 5 romantic movies that you would love to share with your loved ones.2. It doesn’t have to be in order.. as long as you love the movies, it will be fine.3. You have to tag another 5 person to answer this tag

1. GHOST

2. PRETTY WOMAN

3. SOAL HATI

4. EVER AFTER

5. Notting Hill

Alamak nak tag saper nie Besfren....ong dah lah tak ramai blogger fren...

1. Pija (aku tau kau dah buat)

2. The Single

3. Nana

4. Syahani

5. Jimmy Haikal

Cepatnyer masa berlalu

2009-02-03T13:04:00.002+08:00

Hmm sedar tak sedar dah 2009....bulan February dah pun...cepat sungguh masa berlalu...nasib baik January & February nie ada banyak cuti....ok lah sket...tak lah serabut sangat otak nak kerja...bosan pun ada bila asyik kerja...kerja..kerja....hish...apa nak jadi aku nie...

HAri hari aku akan lebih bahagia kalau spend masa aku dengan anak2 kat umah...during the holiday aku sangat happy..pagi2 sibok pikir apa nak masak untuk semua orang kat rumah...pegi pasar, pegi alamanda beli barang....pegi warta bagi beli tudung, beli game PS2...boleh tidur tengahari...tolong hubby kat office...hmm dah abis cuti 3 hari....kenapa lah bila waktu2 yang best nie...masa akan berlalu begitu cepat sekali...tapi kalau kena pegi kerja macam hari nie...adus tengok2 jam....lah baru kul 10.30am...ish lah...bosan...

Tasha oh..Tasha

2009-01-30T09:51:00.000+08:00

Tasha and her super packed activities every day...how on earth to cope with all those activities in a day.

She will start her day as early as 6.00 am siap nak g sekolah...

7.10am Van picked her up to school
7.30 to 1.45 normal school session
2.15 to 5.15 KAFA

Van will pick her up and sampai rumah dalam pukul 6.00

Kalau Wednesday ada KoQ pulak and Thursday is Sports day (sekarang tengah ada practice Kawat Kaki pulak...ish macam2) selalu sampai rumah dah pukul 6.30

Monday and Thursday - Kumon day.

Kena tunggu Mama balik office and then send Tasha and Sarah to Kumon.

Tasha is in Kumon level 4 doing multiplication....tak hafal sifir...worksheet 5 helai campur correction...takes her almost 1 hour to finish the Kumon class...Mama kena lah tunggu kadang2 sampai tertidur...hehee... Yesterday, I was so angry because I've waited for almost 2 hours for her to finish her Kumon class...correction on the previous worksheet banyak giler....sifir tak hafal...pakai tangan lagi campur2 tu...adoi hai...kali nie tak leh jadi...I told her...from now on no more TV until you remember your sifir...hmm sampai bila lah tu...

By the time habis Kumon sampai rumah dah pukul 9.00 malam...homework lagi...semalam buat homework sampai pukul 11.00 malam...kesian pulak but what to do...

I pushed her so hard last year (she's in standard 3) pulun suruh belajar malam2 sebab masa std 3 tak banyak homeowork or maybe she's in 4th class kot....cikgu pun tak ambik pot sangat...beli buku kerja one after another..monitor her almost every night...finally she managed to get No 1 and jumped class from class no 4 to class Perdana...No 1 lah....

Now she's in Std 4....kelas 1...ramai budak2 pandai kat situ...plus her busy and tight schedule...hmm wonder whether she can cope or not... I don't know whether the volume of work and homework is due to her no1 class or is it because she's already in Std4...

By the way she's a very active girl...semua menda suka nak buat...nak main netball, kawat kaki, choir semua nak wakil sekolah...hmm remind me of my school days dulu...hmm anak saper lah kan....

My Life....What to do...

2009-01-29T15:23:00.000+08:00

This is all about me...myself and my life.... I'm 34 years old...married..for almost 10 years already...have 3 lovely kids...

My life is not so bad...I have a good job although if I were to compare myself to others... there are better people out there with better job and much2 better pay...but what is there to complain...I've work very hard to reach what ever level I am now...but now I'm a bit tired with my life especially my current working life.... but do I have a choice...

Some says go and find other job lah...yeah right like what...joining another bank...doing the same old audit thing but in a different company..and resign now.... during this time....err what financial crisis...hmm bad choice....no way....some says...ask for transfer lah to other department...to do what...??? operations...hmm...difficult...I hate my job but I need the job...what to do??

How I wish I can stay at home managing only my home, kids and hubby...I always have this guilty feeling ....leaving my kids with my maid...doing almost everything in the house....

Or maybe I can start my own small business...hmm... like what???...sewing...I tought I'm gonna like sewing after 2 years of attending sewing classes...but my workmanship is still not up to the standard yet...scared that my tempahan will ended up having bad quality...damn...

How about helping hubby with his own business...yeah right...working with him...get scolded by your boss is ok but not your hubby...nanti tebawak2 ker rumah susah...let him runs his own show and let me do my own job...its much better that way.....

Hmm seems that nothing much can be done as of now....life must goes on...and I have to continue doing this job of mine...sucks but I have to do it...you cannot have everything in your life...you win some...you loose some...

Finally

2009-01-29T12:01:00.001+08:00

Finally, I have my own Blog...after quite sometime..procastinating of coz..

Well, I'm gonna dedicate this blog to my family especially my 3 lovely kids...for me to jot down every little detail about them. So that I can remember every single moment and joyful time I had with them. Life is short so lets make full use of each and every moment that we have together.

Kamelia Natasha Binti Mohamed Sabri born in 20 September 1999. Very energetic, smart and curious little girl of mine. Nenek dia kata she is a photocopy of me...heheh...anak siapa lah kan....Always has lots of things to do... be it indoor or outdoor. Penunggu setia Astro - cartoon of cause , PS2 and sekarang tengah explore internet...Hmm cepat betul anak aku nie membesar. Oh by the way.. the hair...rambut nyer kerinting (ikut bapak dia) tapi yang nie baru lepas rebonding. That was one year ago. She said her school mate like to talk about her curly hair...rambut maggie mee lah...maggie goreng lah...macam2.. so one day the father took her to the saloon and do the rebonding tinggy....if not her hair look like this. I think her hair is just fine.

Sometime ago she asked ...

Tasha: Mama..kenapa rambut Tasha kerinting...
Mama: ...hmm itu Allah yang tentu kan...itu anugerah Allah bagi...
Tasha: ...but why me...why not others...
Mama: ...because Allah loves you so much and your hair makes you look so pretty and unique.
Tasha: But why people love to make fun of my hair...
Mama: that's because they're jealous of your pretty hair.

...tough... but kids will always be kids...no matter how.. you still have to answer all sorts of question...
This is my 2nd daughter....Sarah Wardina Binti Mohamed Sabri. Born in January 12, 2003. She's cute, talkative and smart girl. Although she's not as hyperactive as her sister but she's very observant and obedient....(dengar cakap sket yang nie)...she loves book so much, feminine sket dari kakak dia... Kadang2 kalau penat balik kerja...duk sembang2 denga Sarah...segala penat , problem ker haper...hilang macam tu ajer....ini lah penawar duka si jantung hati ku....

Sometime, rasa macam Sarah is much older than her sister, kalau cakap dengan sarah nie lebih senang paham...kadang2 lupa yang dia nie hanya 6 tahun...kadang2 macam mak nenek pun ada...suka membebel...hmm macam mak dia lah...saper lagi...kata papa nyer...Being the middle child nie selalu kena buli...kena buli dek kakak yang so call much older and wiser than her and kena buli dek adik yang so call smaller and kena beralah sebab dia kakak...kesian pun ada...but sarah as always...cool jer...kadang2 nampak gak begenang air mata tu sedih but...I always tell her...be strong...no matter how...

Sarah...wherever she go people will always love her...she's my princess..smart little princess.

Imman Zikran bin Mohamed Sabri. Born in 11 August 2004. My only son. Mischievous boy tapi manja...can't help lah since he's the youngest...kalau mama and papa... dia jer nak concur...tidur pun tak nak tidur bilik sendiri...dah besar pun still nak tidur ngan papa and mama...there's one time papa dia suruh pegi tidur kat bilik dia...papa dia cakap dia dah besar kena tidur asing tak leh tidur ngan mama lagi dah...then Imman cakap...alah papa tu lagi besar tidur ngan mama...dia tak per lah kecik lagi...from that day onwards papa dia tak suruh dah dia g tidur bilik sebelah...heheh...budak2 cam tu lah.....

Imman...although he's naughty tapi dia dengar kata...kalau g jalan2 dia tak lari sana sini...always by my side holding my hand wihout fail...he's not the kind of boy that will cry out loud in public if his demand not fulfil. Kalau mama kata No then he will just keep quite. Senang kalau bawak jalan2 budak nie.... I've sent Imman to a kindergarden belakang rumah. Nenek dia kata, he is too young to go to school...but I'm glad I sent him to school, atleast boleh lah dia berkawan...dari asyik duk ngan bibik jer kat umah tengok cartoon....worst ever tengok citer indon....atleast sekarang dia dah boleh recognise numbers and alphabet. Walaupun kadang2 tengok dia penat...kesian jugak but ok lah half day school..not too bad lah...

Imman is a Mat Smart kind of kid...nak pakai baju mesti yang lawa2 jer...macam bapak dia....Sarah is a princess kinda girl...suka pakai dress, feminine kinda dress/baju. But Tasha, she's simple, (rock cam mama dia...heheh) as long as comfortable for her fast moving activity...its a ok for her...

Well that's all about my 3 little angle for now...now only I realised that what a bad blogger I am...susah ruper nyer nak carik idea nak memulis nie...but one thing good is...I can just write what ever and how ever I want...not like my audit report of coz...heheh...k till we meet again...c ya...